It was just that now his top priority was simply keeping himself secure, so for the time being he had to switch off any unnecessary emotional circuits and focus on the tasks at hand.
Time weighs down on you like an old, ambiguous dream. You keep moving, trying to slip through it. But even if you go to the ends if the earth, you won’t be able to escape it. Still, you have to go there - to the edge of the world. There’s something you can’t do unless you get there.